Goodness I need to rant.
I am in a fandom. I have been in the past 11 years I would say? However, I've only been actively involved for the past 3 years-ish. At first, it was fun and all. Of course it's fun; you get to share how you feel with people with the same mindset as you do. But is it healthy?
Enter Confirmation Bias. Confirmation Bias is a type of cognitive bias that involves favoring information that confirms your previously existing beliefs or biases.
So basically, you intentionally/unintentionally filtered information to suit what you want to listen. You make yourself believe that other people think the same way that you do. Example: when fandom goes crazy when their idols are being recognized in Billboard or Vogue, and get mad when they don't because they BELIEVE that what they think is what other people also think.
I learned about this in Organizational Behaviour class (the confirmation bias theory, not the fandom one lol) and I still love it to this day. People do this all the time. Everyone. Not just fandoms. But it can get worse in fandoms, which brings us to my rant today!
Few days ago, I listened to The Tablo Podcast (#29) in which he discussed about his Youtube subscription list. He said he followed people whose views he doesn't agree with. The producer (like any other sane human being) was confused and questioned him why. Like, why would you give subscription count to people you don't agree with?? Subscription is kinda important in Youtube, right??
So his reason was, "I don't want my subscription list to be the thing that echoes back my thoughts to me. I don't want people to only tell me things I want to hear—there's absolutely no growth in that. I like opposing views so I can protect the views I have and also make my views evolve."
He specifically mentioned it's not hate, but opposing opinions. Hate and criticisms are different. If you still can't tell the difference, please go educate yourself. He wants it cos he wants himself and his opinion to grow and change for the better.
BUT THIS DOESN'T HAPPEN IN A FANDOM.
In fandom, it's like people are afraid to voice their opinions if it doesn't go with the general opinions. So I'm labeling them as cult with bully mentality.
I'm specifically annoyed and triggered by people who praised EVERY SINGLE THING that their idols do. To me, it just looks like they don't want the idols to grow, and honestly even turn me off from the said idol and I wanted to piss them off purposely lmao. Praise when they do something right, criticize constructively when you have to. You can't praise someone who does a bare minimum. Some people are so afraid of praising other singers who are not their favourite. Why? Are you afraid? Is your idol that weak? Do you think by praising other creative works your idols will be threatened?
This is one thing that also annoys me. By praising them blindly, it makes you look like you don't trust them. You don't trust their ability to grow and to compete.
I can be a person that loves only one single artist in the entire music world, but I can still point out great things from many different artists. Heck, even my idol learns from other artists!!! And what sucks is that sometimes I see a stan account who never listens to song from certain artists but when the idol they like listened to it, suddenly they'll be like "OMG thank you for introducing me to this great song. TASTE."
Yeah, right.
Spineless stan just eats up everything. I guess it's great that you give unconditional support to the idol, but then again, YOUR IDOL WON'T GROW THAT WAY. I mean it's not like they notice their fans are praising every little thing they do or opposing. I do LOL. And it's just infuriating to me. I'm constantly annoyed, but I don't block them or anything, cos it becomes a reminder to me TO NOT BECOME LIKE THAT.
Friday, April 17, 2020
Saturday, April 4, 2020
Post-pandemic to-do list
Funny how suddenly our life's changed because of the pandemic. Even funnier that probably some of our life's priority changed too.
There are many little things that we took for granted and we delayed because we thought we had a lot of time, but we can barely get out of our house without worrying these days.
There hasn't been a day that I wake up completely worry-free since last month, so I'm just gonna use this space to write on little things that I want to do once this pandemic is over. Hopefully ASAP.
1. Meet up with friends and hug them
2. Have a Korean BBQ dinner at the restaurant (not at home like what I've been doing these past few weeks)
3. Have wine night with my uni friends
4. Visit øsechill
5. Visit Harry Potter Orlando
6. Do that overdue road trip from east coast to west coast
7. Enjoy latte and strawberry roll cake in my favourite coffee shop
8. Lunch date with old colleagues and coworkers
9. Attend festivals and music concerts
10. Karaoke
11. Shop on vintage clothing stores that I've never visited before
Please let this virus vanish soon. But until then, stay safe and stay inside!
There are many little things that we took for granted and we delayed because we thought we had a lot of time, but we can barely get out of our house without worrying these days.
There hasn't been a day that I wake up completely worry-free since last month, so I'm just gonna use this space to write on little things that I want to do once this pandemic is over. Hopefully ASAP.
1. Meet up with friends and hug them
2. Have a Korean BBQ dinner at the restaurant (not at home like what I've been doing these past few weeks)
3. Have wine night with my uni friends
4. Visit øsechill
5. Visit Harry Potter Orlando
6. Do that overdue road trip from east coast to west coast
7. Enjoy latte and strawberry roll cake in my favourite coffee shop
8. Lunch date with old colleagues and coworkers
9. Attend festivals and music concerts
10. Karaoke
11. Shop on vintage clothing stores that I've never visited before
Please let this virus vanish soon. But until then, stay safe and stay inside!
Wednesday, August 21, 2019
Thoughts on Ahn Jaehyun & Goo Hyesun's divorce
As a huge NJTTW fan, I was so angry when the divorce news dropped. Not because of the divorce itself, but because of the messy state the divorce was (and still is) in. I'm just worried that the production team decided to keep him and thus affect the entire show. As a selfish fan, my priority is only the show lol. At first I was mad at Jaehyun; I fully believed the entire statement by Goo and I believed him as being fake throughout his entire marriage. But now that both statements are out, I can safely say, both of them are crazy.
Honestly, I'm not surprised. There's no such guy like Jaehyun in real life. There were hints dropped here and there, even in NJTTW.
Jaehyun once said, he held hands with Goo before sleep and read book to each other. Na PD said, after 6 months of marriage, if you're still like this, I'm gonna take you to the hospital.
LMAO.
Soogeun also said, a guy like you is scary. You always smile and laugh, but you'll explode one day. You have to let it out.
And you see, aren't both of them right?
From Jaehyun's statement regarding the divorce: he painted Goo as the crazy one, gold-digger, and stalker. He said he was depressed ever since he got married, but didn't he play the romantic husband image even until NJTTW5 which was in his 2 years of marriage, yet he said he immediately received treatment in the first year of marriage? Maybe he did try, maybe he thought if he fooled others, he can fool himself too.
From Goo's side: she said Jaehyun didn't give her the love as a husband should, cheated, criticized her body, she admitted to break in but refused to said as breaking in because she's still the wife thus she has the rights, she also refused that they agreed on divorce, while Jaehyun said they agreed.
But, could it be that her demand was too high that Jaehyun grew tired of her? And could it be that they did agree to live separately yet she can't accept the fact that Jaehyun left her? And after all that, she still wants to hold on to the marriage and not let him go?
This is toxic relationship. I've been there and there's no wrong individuals here. Both of them just happen to met the wrong match.
I was very much like Goo in my last relationship and my ex was very much like Jaehyun. When we got to know each other, we immediately clicked. Everything was flowery, beautiful, passionate. We can't stop talking to each other, he wanted to meet my parents (in less than a month of dating tf), we were so sure of each other. As fast as the fire lit up, that's how fast the fire died down. We broke up after few months. He cheated.
Just like Jaehyun who chose to spend his birthday with other women and left Goo at home, my ex also chose to spend Thanksgiving with other women and left me at home.
My ex liked me immediately because I was different, according to him. I told him that I didn't want a casual date and I wanted relationship. Sound familiar like Goo?
He agreed to it and I was showered with love (or so I thought). He made lots of efforts; he planned a trip to watch meteor shower, which is my most favorite thing in the world, he cooked for me, he tried to match my taste in food, matched my sleep schedule so we could always do phone call before sleep (also this reminds me, I told him I liked phone call and I meant we should do it only every few days if we can't meet. He said he didn't like phone call but he called me every single day. He literally went from 0 to 100, and I went along with it. I was also dumb. We dumb), basically fulfilled every request I made.
My mom warned me, that it was not normal, but I told her, I know this guy, I will be fine. Well, guess who cried to her mom few months later? LMAO.
I was happy and I thought he did that because he wanted to. I didn't account the fact that it was not his personality, but it was a him that wanted to match my expectation. And I guess that's Jaehyun too. Jaehyun probably isn't a romantic guy by birth. He's probably being romantic and tried his best, because he wanted to match Goo's expectation.The thing is, Goo and I, we didn't expect those treatments. We think the men acted so, because they wanted to do it, not because they thought it would make us happy. There is a lot of mismatch there.
Jaehyun probably wanted to date for a while before getting married, but because Goo wanted serious stuff and he did like her a lot at this time, he agreed to get married.
My ex also probably wanted to just fool around a bit before making sure to be serious with me, but I wanted a relationship and he didn't want to lose me (now that I think about it, it's probably not because he liked me that much, but because he just want to prove he can get a girl like me), that's why he agreed to a relationship.
This is recipe for disaster.
Towards the end of our relationship, I noticed my ex was getting more and more distant. The thing with the situation was I refused to believe that he fell out of love because the love was so intense at the beginning, it seemed extremely weird that he kept a distance. While the fact is that there was no love at the beginning. It was all effort to win me. Now that he won me and I became obsessed with him, he lost interest. And as I was obsessed with him, the mystery part of the chasing disappeared and he realized maybe I wasn't as how he pictured me in his mind. So he went to find other target.
At this point, third-party outsider would have said that he's a jerk. (I mean he is, but I can't blame him for that) However, it was also my fault that let him in very quickly and fell so hard and so fast for someone who was not on the eye-level with me in terms of relationship. He was wrong because he chose the quick way out by cheating, he was wrong by not communicating what he felt at the beginning, but I was also wrong by trying to get something from someone who didn't want the same thing as me.
Some people would've said that I shouldn't be apologetic on what I want. If I want a serious relationship, then I should not lower my standard to the guy's standard. I agree. I didn't say that what I wanted was wrong. What's wrong is to expect the others to have same expectation as I did. You should always listen to what the others said. One lesson that I learned over the years, if a guy shows you how he actually is, believe him. Don't try to change him, don't even think that he will change over the years. If they said, "I actually don't want this, but I want this because I want you.", GET OUT QUICKLY. That's not a romantic statement, that's a pre-disaster statement.
I repeatedly told him, "Don't change yourself for me". But he said, he wanted to try his best and he thinks relationship is about compromising so I shouldn't worry about it. Yet towards the end they became tired and realized they didn't want to do it anymore. I just don't understand men.
Goo may have seem crazy, but Jaehyun was the one who made her like that.
Jaehyun is a jerk, but Goo could've avoided the situation if she didn't push for serious relationship at the beginning.
Both of them are wrong. And the only thing left is divorce. If Goo holds on to this, she will be the one that will continue to get hurt. (Plus, why would you want to stay with someone who cheated??? I guess that's the only difference between me and Goo, cos when I found out my ex cheated, I yeeted right away, like instantly the same hour I found out he lied, I broke up through text lmao).
Anyway, tldr; get Jaehyun out of NJTTW7 so the rest of the cast won't be affected and the show can go on, because even though he's not 100% at fault, it seems like the entire Korea is angry at him. Take him back when the situation is better if the production team really likes him. Protect the rest of the cast members cos I just want my show this year, please.
Honestly, I'm not surprised. There's no such guy like Jaehyun in real life. There were hints dropped here and there, even in NJTTW.
Jaehyun once said, he held hands with Goo before sleep and read book to each other. Na PD said, after 6 months of marriage, if you're still like this, I'm gonna take you to the hospital.
LMAO.
Soogeun also said, a guy like you is scary. You always smile and laugh, but you'll explode one day. You have to let it out.
And you see, aren't both of them right?
From Jaehyun's statement regarding the divorce: he painted Goo as the crazy one, gold-digger, and stalker. He said he was depressed ever since he got married, but didn't he play the romantic husband image even until NJTTW5 which was in his 2 years of marriage, yet he said he immediately received treatment in the first year of marriage? Maybe he did try, maybe he thought if he fooled others, he can fool himself too.
From Goo's side: she said Jaehyun didn't give her the love as a husband should, cheated, criticized her body, she admitted to break in but refused to said as breaking in because she's still the wife thus she has the rights, she also refused that they agreed on divorce, while Jaehyun said they agreed.
But, could it be that her demand was too high that Jaehyun grew tired of her? And could it be that they did agree to live separately yet she can't accept the fact that Jaehyun left her? And after all that, she still wants to hold on to the marriage and not let him go?
This is toxic relationship. I've been there and there's no wrong individuals here. Both of them just happen to met the wrong match.
I was very much like Goo in my last relationship and my ex was very much like Jaehyun. When we got to know each other, we immediately clicked. Everything was flowery, beautiful, passionate. We can't stop talking to each other, he wanted to meet my parents (in less than a month of dating tf), we were so sure of each other. As fast as the fire lit up, that's how fast the fire died down. We broke up after few months. He cheated.
Just like Jaehyun who chose to spend his birthday with other women and left Goo at home, my ex also chose to spend Thanksgiving with other women and left me at home.
My ex liked me immediately because I was different, according to him. I told him that I didn't want a casual date and I wanted relationship. Sound familiar like Goo?
He agreed to it and I was showered with love (or so I thought). He made lots of efforts; he planned a trip to watch meteor shower, which is my most favorite thing in the world, he cooked for me, he tried to match my taste in food, matched my sleep schedule so we could always do phone call before sleep (also this reminds me, I told him I liked phone call and I meant we should do it only every few days if we can't meet. He said he didn't like phone call but he called me every single day. He literally went from 0 to 100, and I went along with it. I was also dumb. We dumb), basically fulfilled every request I made.
My mom warned me, that it was not normal, but I told her, I know this guy, I will be fine. Well, guess who cried to her mom few months later? LMAO.
I was happy and I thought he did that because he wanted to. I didn't account the fact that it was not his personality, but it was a him that wanted to match my expectation. And I guess that's Jaehyun too. Jaehyun probably isn't a romantic guy by birth. He's probably being romantic and tried his best, because he wanted to match Goo's expectation.The thing is, Goo and I, we didn't expect those treatments. We think the men acted so, because they wanted to do it, not because they thought it would make us happy. There is a lot of mismatch there.
Jaehyun probably wanted to date for a while before getting married, but because Goo wanted serious stuff and he did like her a lot at this time, he agreed to get married.
My ex also probably wanted to just fool around a bit before making sure to be serious with me, but I wanted a relationship and he didn't want to lose me (now that I think about it, it's probably not because he liked me that much, but because he just want to prove he can get a girl like me), that's why he agreed to a relationship.
This is recipe for disaster.
Towards the end of our relationship, I noticed my ex was getting more and more distant. The thing with the situation was I refused to believe that he fell out of love because the love was so intense at the beginning, it seemed extremely weird that he kept a distance. While the fact is that there was no love at the beginning. It was all effort to win me. Now that he won me and I became obsessed with him, he lost interest. And as I was obsessed with him, the mystery part of the chasing disappeared and he realized maybe I wasn't as how he pictured me in his mind. So he went to find other target.
At this point, third-party outsider would have said that he's a jerk. (I mean he is, but I can't blame him for that) However, it was also my fault that let him in very quickly and fell so hard and so fast for someone who was not on the eye-level with me in terms of relationship. He was wrong because he chose the quick way out by cheating, he was wrong by not communicating what he felt at the beginning, but I was also wrong by trying to get something from someone who didn't want the same thing as me.
Some people would've said that I shouldn't be apologetic on what I want. If I want a serious relationship, then I should not lower my standard to the guy's standard. I agree. I didn't say that what I wanted was wrong. What's wrong is to expect the others to have same expectation as I did. You should always listen to what the others said. One lesson that I learned over the years, if a guy shows you how he actually is, believe him. Don't try to change him, don't even think that he will change over the years. If they said, "I actually don't want this, but I want this because I want you.", GET OUT QUICKLY. That's not a romantic statement, that's a pre-disaster statement.
I repeatedly told him, "Don't change yourself for me". But he said, he wanted to try his best and he thinks relationship is about compromising so I shouldn't worry about it. Yet towards the end they became tired and realized they didn't want to do it anymore. I just don't understand men.
Goo may have seem crazy, but Jaehyun was the one who made her like that.
Jaehyun is a jerk, but Goo could've avoided the situation if she didn't push for serious relationship at the beginning.
Both of them are wrong. And the only thing left is divorce. If Goo holds on to this, she will be the one that will continue to get hurt. (Plus, why would you want to stay with someone who cheated??? I guess that's the only difference between me and Goo, cos when I found out my ex cheated, I yeeted right away, like instantly the same hour I found out he lied, I broke up through text lmao).
Anyway, tldr; get Jaehyun out of NJTTW7 so the rest of the cast won't be affected and the show can go on, because even though he's not 100% at fault, it seems like the entire Korea is angry at him. Take him back when the situation is better if the production team really likes him. Protect the rest of the cast members cos I just want my show this year, please.
Saturday, March 9, 2019
My thoughts on SKY Castle
I just finished binge watching SKY Castle last Monday (1 month later than everyone else lol). I watched 5 ep on Saturday, 11 ep on Sunday, and 4 ep on Monday, and I have lots to say! I didn't plan on watching it at all as it got so popular to the point that I don't want to be part of the mainstream, but Mino started watching it so I guess I should LOL. What I will say is probably not meaningful but I guess I just want to share the story of my youth.
Everyone hates Yesuh. Including me. I hate her character so much, but I was like her in my younger years. I was always the first in my class in elementary school and middle school that I got voted as class president for 11 straight years. But in elementary school of course it wasn't the students that voted for me, the homeroom teacher made me the class president. I was hated lol. We did a lot of simulation tests during 6th grade when almost everyday we had to answer 100-questions exam to prepare us to graduate. I once spotted my classmate cheated--she was hiding notes in her lap and copied it during exam, and I reported her to my homeroom teacher HAHAHA. Well if I can get 100 with my own brain, I won't let people beat me by cheating. I was not wrong ok lmao.
Towards the end of my elementary school, I knew the teacher played with my grades. In the first semester of 6th grade, I finished 2nd. Someone who's always been 2nd beat me (she's now my best friend who's an MD). I knew they played with the grades because nobody in the school has ever finished the entire 6 years being number 1, not including my friend's sister, our senior who's extremely smart (she's now the youngest doctor in Singapore). The rumor was whoever got 1st for the entire 6 years would be granted a scholarship. I guess my school was too cheap for that. Plus I was labeled as someone whose family was well-off so of course they wouldn't want to give me free money; they actually kept asking for donations from my parents instead smh. Anyway, I bounced back to 1st position in the 2nd semester, but I finished school ranked 2nd in the entire province. I found out someone who's usually 3rd in my class finished as 1st in the entire province. I couldn't believe it and I secretly hated her a little and talked bad about her lolol (she's now married with a child and I don't think she really cares about career and such unlike the other 2 I mentioned above).
Going to middle school, I still did well. Got in special class where only selected 20 students can get in and I always finished the semesters in the top 3. I finished middle school ranked 2nd in the entire school and 30 something in entire province. But see, that was a downgrade. From 2nd in the entire province to 30-ish was a let down. Even though my grades were 98, 96, 94. I guess I should really aim for 100, 100, 100 like Yesuh LOL. The one who's ranked 1st in my school (I think his grades were 100, 96, 94) is also still a good friend of mine--he's an IT engineer that currently works in Paris on company's behalf. My friends are cool~
Then high school. This was hell. What Yesuh did to get into university, I did too. My mom made me join a lot of academy. I always reached home around 10 pm every day. I was still in special class which sometimes finished at 5 pm, then I'd go to language courses for 1.5 hours, then I went to science academy until 10 pm. Now that I think about it, I can't understand how I survived. My mom is the typical SKY Castle mom. She'd bring me breakfast everyday (I ate sandwich for 10 years until my best friend got sick of the smell of bread), she'd come to school during lunch break and delivered my lunch, and I'd eat my dinner in the car. However, I'd say my mom is more like Jinjin cause of her quick burst of temper lolol. Plus she's pretty and vain LOL. Imagine still being able to take care of her appearance while being a tiger mom, that's a skill not everyone has.
High school was hell but I never felt like it during those years. I was an obedient kid and I thought that's normal. But even then, my grades dropped. My ranking in high school was in the bottom half of the class. I studied on my own in elementary and middle school and I was fine, but in high school with academy it became worse instead. I don't know if there's relation to it but I guess I also started to rebel a little bit, I started to skip class lol. I had a boyfriend in my first year; he's a senior and model student too but I guessed we abused our model students title to skip class to pretend to attend meetings HAHAHA. I guess that's also why I didn't feel my high school days were a waste because I wasn't only studying and studying, I got to enjoy my youth so it was ok. In the senior year though, cause my then bf had graduated, and my parents were so focused to get me into prestigious university abroad, it became harder but didn't make any improvement in my opinion. They made me attend another academy that's specializing in teaching questions from these universities entrance exams. They also hired a private tutor for me for the weekend. My friend (the one graduated 1st in middle school) and attended the academy together, and he also hired the same weekend tutor. But none of us made it HAHAHA. He eventually did get in this university for his M.Sc s not for his bachelor. We traveled together to take these university exams but I know I couldn't make it. The tests were hella difficult. Like the mathematics level were so difficult, I don't think they actually use it unless you got into mathematics major. So I really don't understand why it's the standard test for the entrance cos I wanted to get into business major. Why tf would I need log and Pythagoras for business? At the end, we (me, him, and my best friend) ended up attending same university for undergrad just in different major.
I didn't blame my parents for that, because I think at that time I also wanted to get in to those prestigious university, like Yesuh. I've heard many depressing stories about those universities and while I'd be happy to study there, I think I got a little scared too and was grateful that I didn't get in. For some reason I believe bachelor's title is more difficult to achieve then master's. I struggled so hard to finish my undergrad but my MBA was an easier journey.
Anyway, the reason why SKY Castle was popular I guess because it's so relatable in Asia. Those things exist; the private tutor, bribing the teachers (I know one of my friend did. She just admitted to me this year OMG decades of lying lol), suicide, maybe even the murder part.
So I didn't regret joining the popular train, and kudos to all casts for doing a really great job on the drama. Since it's really heavy on family vibe, I miss all of the casts and I hope they still get invitation to variety shows where I can see their chemistry again!
You all know SKY stands for Seoul National University, Korea University, and Yonsei University right? The 3 university in South Korea where people would literally kill to get there. They're like the Ivy League of Korea.
I ALMOST went to Yonsei for my MBA exchange, but due to some family complications I didn't. I guess that's one of my biggest regret in MBA. Maybe I should do PhD and see if there's other chance for me to go to Yonsei again lol. See? There are students like Yesuh. We exist :)
Everyone hates Yesuh. Including me. I hate her character so much, but I was like her in my younger years. I was always the first in my class in elementary school and middle school that I got voted as class president for 11 straight years. But in elementary school of course it wasn't the students that voted for me, the homeroom teacher made me the class president. I was hated lol. We did a lot of simulation tests during 6th grade when almost everyday we had to answer 100-questions exam to prepare us to graduate. I once spotted my classmate cheated--she was hiding notes in her lap and copied it during exam, and I reported her to my homeroom teacher HAHAHA. Well if I can get 100 with my own brain, I won't let people beat me by cheating. I was not wrong ok lmao.
Towards the end of my elementary school, I knew the teacher played with my grades. In the first semester of 6th grade, I finished 2nd. Someone who's always been 2nd beat me (she's now my best friend who's an MD). I knew they played with the grades because nobody in the school has ever finished the entire 6 years being number 1, not including my friend's sister, our senior who's extremely smart (she's now the youngest doctor in Singapore). The rumor was whoever got 1st for the entire 6 years would be granted a scholarship. I guess my school was too cheap for that. Plus I was labeled as someone whose family was well-off so of course they wouldn't want to give me free money; they actually kept asking for donations from my parents instead smh. Anyway, I bounced back to 1st position in the 2nd semester, but I finished school ranked 2nd in the entire province. I found out someone who's usually 3rd in my class finished as 1st in the entire province. I couldn't believe it and I secretly hated her a little and talked bad about her lolol (she's now married with a child and I don't think she really cares about career and such unlike the other 2 I mentioned above).
Going to middle school, I still did well. Got in special class where only selected 20 students can get in and I always finished the semesters in the top 3. I finished middle school ranked 2nd in the entire school and 30 something in entire province. But see, that was a downgrade. From 2nd in the entire province to 30-ish was a let down. Even though my grades were 98, 96, 94. I guess I should really aim for 100, 100, 100 like Yesuh LOL. The one who's ranked 1st in my school (I think his grades were 100, 96, 94) is also still a good friend of mine--he's an IT engineer that currently works in Paris on company's behalf. My friends are cool~
Then high school. This was hell. What Yesuh did to get into university, I did too. My mom made me join a lot of academy. I always reached home around 10 pm every day. I was still in special class which sometimes finished at 5 pm, then I'd go to language courses for 1.5 hours, then I went to science academy until 10 pm. Now that I think about it, I can't understand how I survived. My mom is the typical SKY Castle mom. She'd bring me breakfast everyday (I ate sandwich for 10 years until my best friend got sick of the smell of bread), she'd come to school during lunch break and delivered my lunch, and I'd eat my dinner in the car. However, I'd say my mom is more like Jinjin cause of her quick burst of temper lolol. Plus she's pretty and vain LOL. Imagine still being able to take care of her appearance while being a tiger mom, that's a skill not everyone has.
High school was hell but I never felt like it during those years. I was an obedient kid and I thought that's normal. But even then, my grades dropped. My ranking in high school was in the bottom half of the class. I studied on my own in elementary and middle school and I was fine, but in high school with academy it became worse instead. I don't know if there's relation to it but I guess I also started to rebel a little bit, I started to skip class lol. I had a boyfriend in my first year; he's a senior and model student too but I guessed we abused our model students title to skip class to pretend to attend meetings HAHAHA. I guess that's also why I didn't feel my high school days were a waste because I wasn't only studying and studying, I got to enjoy my youth so it was ok. In the senior year though, cause my then bf had graduated, and my parents were so focused to get me into prestigious university abroad, it became harder but didn't make any improvement in my opinion. They made me attend another academy that's specializing in teaching questions from these universities entrance exams. They also hired a private tutor for me for the weekend. My friend (the one graduated 1st in middle school) and attended the academy together, and he also hired the same weekend tutor. But none of us made it HAHAHA. He eventually did get in this university for his M.Sc s not for his bachelor. We traveled together to take these university exams but I know I couldn't make it. The tests were hella difficult. Like the mathematics level were so difficult, I don't think they actually use it unless you got into mathematics major. So I really don't understand why it's the standard test for the entrance cos I wanted to get into business major. Why tf would I need log and Pythagoras for business? At the end, we (me, him, and my best friend) ended up attending same university for undergrad just in different major.
I didn't blame my parents for that, because I think at that time I also wanted to get in to those prestigious university, like Yesuh. I've heard many depressing stories about those universities and while I'd be happy to study there, I think I got a little scared too and was grateful that I didn't get in. For some reason I believe bachelor's title is more difficult to achieve then master's. I struggled so hard to finish my undergrad but my MBA was an easier journey.
Anyway, the reason why SKY Castle was popular I guess because it's so relatable in Asia. Those things exist; the private tutor, bribing the teachers (I know one of my friend did. She just admitted to me this year OMG decades of lying lol), suicide, maybe even the murder part.
So I didn't regret joining the popular train, and kudos to all casts for doing a really great job on the drama. Since it's really heavy on family vibe, I miss all of the casts and I hope they still get invitation to variety shows where I can see their chemistry again!
You all know SKY stands for Seoul National University, Korea University, and Yonsei University right? The 3 university in South Korea where people would literally kill to get there. They're like the Ivy League of Korea.
I ALMOST went to Yonsei for my MBA exchange, but due to some family complications I didn't. I guess that's one of my biggest regret in MBA. Maybe I should do PhD and see if there's other chance for me to go to Yonsei again lol. See? There are students like Yesuh. We exist :)
Saturday, August 11, 2018
My Guide to Bubble Tea
Bubble Tea has always been and is still an important part of my life. I generally love tea almost as much as I love water, cause I don't drink coffee. I envy people who look cool drinking coffee (aka Song Minho. But in all honesty he looks cool no matter what he does), but I really can't. Occasionally mocha and latte work for me, but most of the time they will cause me stomachache also wtf. Drinking coffee is a dramatic experience for me ok.
Anyway... the bubble tea brand that has my heart is definitely KOI Cafe. It just doesn't exist where I live :( Saying it's my favourite, however, I only drink 1 menu from there LOL. So here goes my list if you visit a bubble tea store and want to try the best menu (well, according to my personal taste):
1. KOI Cafe
2. Happy Lemon
My newfound love. This is AMAZING. The best tea drink in entire country for me.
3. Gong Cha
This chain store kinda grew on me because this is the only available store in my neighbourhood lmao. But tbh, I used to love this before they deleted Earl Grey off the menu. Then somehow they popped the Earl Grey back, so I rekindled my love for them wtf. (although Chatime also has them now)
My favourites in this store:
- Milk Foam Green Tea (you see the pattern here. I like to drink tea with foam, tasting the tea then mix them together. Pleasure omg. And Gong Cha was the first store that introduce me to this actually. Back in 2014?)
※ Bottom part is pudding as the topping ※
- Peach Green Tea with Coconut Jelly (when you don't want something milky)
- Matcha Milk Tea with Mango Syrup
HAHAHA I know this may sound gross. But here's the story behind it. One day I was buying my tea, minding my own business. And these people behind the counter was busy creating 'experimental' drink and forced me to try it (perks of visiting the store too often wtf). They promised me it's not poisonous even though it's green af so I tried. And it turns out GOOD. So I've been asking them to make that for me lol. The one pictured is with Pudding as topping and if you look carefully, you can see the mango pulp at the bottom.
- Earl Grey Milk Tea/Green Milk Tea with Pudding
I know I've been complaining about the Earl Grey and it's not even in my top 3 HAHAHA. Green tea is better for me now (for the reason it's healthier, but actually with a lot of sugar they are all the same...)
4. Chatime
Used to by my favourite, but I rarely have this although they have MANY variations. I guess it's really the location that prevents me to have them regularly.
What I usually have here:
- Chatime Milk Tea/Green Milk Tea with Pudding
- Mango Green Tea with Rainbow Jelly
- Green Tea Mousse (Sea Salt Crema??)
-Green Tea/Matcha Tea Latte
5. Honorable mention: Icha Tea
Man, they all look the same lol. And yes, I drink bubble tea WITHOUT the bubbles. HAHAHA.
Anyway... the bubble tea brand that has my heart is definitely KOI Cafe. It just doesn't exist where I live :( Saying it's my favourite, however, I only drink 1 menu from there LOL. So here goes my list if you visit a bubble tea store and want to try the best menu (well, according to my personal taste):
1. KOI Cafe
-Green Tea Macchiato-
2. Happy Lemon
-Green Tea with Salted Cheese-
My newfound love. This is AMAZING. The best tea drink in entire country for me.
3. Gong Cha
This chain store kinda grew on me because this is the only available store in my neighbourhood lmao. But tbh, I used to love this before they deleted Earl Grey off the menu. Then somehow they popped the Earl Grey back, so I rekindled my love for them wtf. (although Chatime also has them now)
My favourites in this store:
- Milk Foam Green Tea (you see the pattern here. I like to drink tea with foam, tasting the tea then mix them together. Pleasure omg. And Gong Cha was the first store that introduce me to this actually. Back in 2014?)
- Matcha Milk Tea with Mango Syrup
HAHAHA I know this may sound gross. But here's the story behind it. One day I was buying my tea, minding my own business. And these people behind the counter was busy creating 'experimental' drink and forced me to try it (perks of visiting the store too often wtf). They promised me it's not poisonous even though it's green af so I tried. And it turns out GOOD. So I've been asking them to make that for me lol. The one pictured is with Pudding as topping and if you look carefully, you can see the mango pulp at the bottom.
- Earl Grey Milk Tea/Green Milk Tea with Pudding
I know I've been complaining about the Earl Grey and it's not even in my top 3 HAHAHA. Green tea is better for me now (for the reason it's healthier, but actually with a lot of sugar they are all the same...)
4. Chatime
Used to by my favourite, but I rarely have this although they have MANY variations. I guess it's really the location that prevents me to have them regularly.
What I usually have here:
- Chatime Milk Tea/Green Milk Tea with Pudding
- Mango Green Tea with Rainbow Jelly
- Green Tea Mousse (Sea Salt Crema??)
-Green Tea/Matcha Tea Latte
5. Honorable mention: Icha Tea
-Rose Jasmine Tea with Cheese Foam-
Man, they all look the same lol. And yes, I drink bubble tea WITHOUT the bubbles. HAHAHA.
Friday, October 16, 2015
Running Man 195 Song List
I was re-watching the episode of Running Man Idol Championship 2014 with 2NE1, 2PM, and Mystic89 as guests; then I got curious by one of the background song but none of my Google search results have satisfied me. So I made a little list of the songs used as background song for this episode. Some theme songs were played more than once, but I only write when it's first time played on the episode. Feel free to add if there's any song I missed.
Enjoy!
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00:38 - 00:55 ~ David Bisball - Baleria
00:59 - 01:21 ~ David Bisball - Baleria
01:52 - 02:12 ~ Gabry Ponte - Time to Rock
02:13 - 03:24 ~ 2PM - Heartbeat
04:11 - 04:49 ~ TTS - Twinkle
04:50 - 06:13 ~ 2NE1 - Fire
07:22 - 07:37 ~ Yoon Jong Shin's theme song from Family Outing (Jeong Jun Eui Gum - Dirty Carnival OST)
07:37 - 08:28 ~ Lim Kim - All Right
10:22 - 10:27 (Jun K. & Ji Hyo duet) ~ Jun K. & Lim Jeong Hee - Gajima (Don't Go Away)
20:25 - 20:55 ~ 2NE1 - I am the Best
24:55 - 25:13 ~ Ji Suk Jin's theme song (JYP - The House You Live In)
25:31 - 25:57 ~ Kim Jong Kook's theme song (Beowulf - What We Need is a Hero)
28:15 - 28:50 ~ CL - MTBD (Mental Breakdown)
29:12 - 29:21 ~ CL - MTBD (Mental Breakdown)
44:55 - 45:02 ~ Sweetbox - Don't Push Me
45:20 - 45:35 ~ Sweetbox - Don't Push Me
46:07 - 46:47 ~ Gabry Ponte - Time to Rock
47:40 - 48:45 ~ Mission Impossible theme
57:10 - 01:01:00 ~ Yoomes Bond's theme song (Moby - Extreme Ways)
01:21:52 - 01:22:52 ~ Lee Kwang Soo's playful theme song (Theme of False Emperor)
01:22:52 - 01:24:56 ~ Lee Kwang Soo's betrayal theme song (Public Enemy - Main Theme)
Enjoy!
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00:38 - 00:55 ~ David Bisball - Baleria
00:59 - 01:21 ~ David Bisball - Baleria
01:52 - 02:12 ~ Gabry Ponte - Time to Rock
02:13 - 03:24 ~ 2PM - Heartbeat
04:11 - 04:49 ~ TTS - Twinkle
04:50 - 06:13 ~ 2NE1 - Fire
07:22 - 07:37 ~ Yoon Jong Shin's theme song from Family Outing (Jeong Jun Eui Gum - Dirty Carnival OST)
07:37 - 08:28 ~ Lim Kim - All Right
10:22 - 10:27 (Jun K. & Ji Hyo duet) ~ Jun K. & Lim Jeong Hee - Gajima (Don't Go Away)
20:25 - 20:55 ~ 2NE1 - I am the Best
24:55 - 25:13 ~ Ji Suk Jin's theme song (JYP - The House You Live In)
25:31 - 25:57 ~ Kim Jong Kook's theme song (Beowulf - What We Need is a Hero)
28:15 - 28:50 ~ CL - MTBD (Mental Breakdown)
29:12 - 29:21 ~ CL - MTBD (Mental Breakdown)
44:55 - 45:02 ~ Sweetbox - Don't Push Me
45:20 - 45:35 ~ Sweetbox - Don't Push Me
46:07 - 46:47 ~ Gabry Ponte - Time to Rock
47:40 - 48:45 ~ Mission Impossible theme
57:10 - 01:01:00 ~ Yoomes Bond's theme song (Moby - Extreme Ways)
01:21:52 - 01:22:52 ~ Lee Kwang Soo's playful theme song (Theme of False Emperor)
01:22:52 - 01:24:56 ~ Lee Kwang Soo's betrayal theme song (Public Enemy - Main Theme)
Wednesday, July 1, 2015
Life lesson learned from Candy Crush
1. Ride to the top is lonely
2. There are many ways to finish a problem
3. People are so quick to ask help from you, yet respond really slowly when you're the one asking
4. Sometimes what it looks like help, actually is slowing you down
5. Be creative in solving problems
6. Whenever you feel like you're on high place, there is always someone higher than you are
7. Never give up
As per now, I am on level 911 and in my Facebook there are 5 more people above me.
#teamnolife
(Kidding. All those on top ranks are actually pretty busy in real life and have real busy working job. Guess we just use lunch time and breaks effectively lol.)
2. There are many ways to finish a problem
3. People are so quick to ask help from you, yet respond really slowly when you're the one asking
4. Sometimes what it looks like help, actually is slowing you down
5. Be creative in solving problems
6. Whenever you feel like you're on high place, there is always someone higher than you are
7. Never give up
As per now, I am on level 911 and in my Facebook there are 5 more people above me.
#teamnolife
(Kidding. All those on top ranks are actually pretty busy in real life and have real busy working job. Guess we just use lunch time and breaks effectively lol.)
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